Saturday, July 30, 2005

Pampasaya.

1. Isiping si Paul ang kumakanta ng Dragostea Din Tei at ginagawa ang Numa Numa Dance habang todo crip walk. Numa numan iei.. numa numa iei.. numa numa numa iei.. :))
2. Asarin si Shyn at wag patulugin! Patuloy parin ang "numa numa" hanggang sa maasar cya.
3. Pakinggan si Shyn habang nagsasabing "Oompa Loompah".
4. "Who's there?" "I'm your conscience." .."Conscience, am I dead?", --Finding Nemo (Si Shyn... hay windang!)
5. Puchang Dragonstea yan!!!! haha!!
6. hmm.... "him.gif" :D
7. Panoorin si Gary Brolsma na nagnunuma-numa sa newgrounds.
8. Hay.. isipin si Summit.
... extra+rice || 1:17 AM

Friday, July 29, 2005

Johnny Rzeznik.

That's my Johnny. :D
- goo goo girl
... extra+rice || 10:13 AM

Slide.

"O, May, put your arms around me. What you feel is what you are, what you are is beautiful. O, May, do you wanna get married? Or runaway?" --Slide (Goo Goo Dolls)
- goo goo girl
... extra+rice || 10:11 AM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

The Goo Goo Girl.

01. Does ur name have an 'a'?
- 5 a's actually

02. Two of your dominant feelings at themoment?
- excited :D and afraid...

03. What are you listening to right now?
- Black Balloon (Goo Goo Dolls)

04. A part of a song lyric that's in your mind right now?
- "O, May, put your arms around me, what you feel is what you are, what you are is beautiful. O, May, do you wanna get married? or runaway?"

05. Describe where you are right now?
- room ko. magulong malinis.

06. What is your highlight of the week?
- hmm.. after 3 weeks of not talking, ed showed up and asked if we can talk. ayun.

07. What are you craving to have right now?
- money. i'm still broke.

08. A good random childhood memory?
- picnics sa loob ng bahay ng insan ko hehehehe.

09. A not good childhood memo
- hmm.. dami. :D

10. What are your nicknames?
- em-em, em, emitot, emmie, emski, achi, chingching, emmah.

11. Your three plans for tomorrow?
- training, band practice, nova.

12. Your three plans for today?
- go to school, go to school, and, uh... go to school.

3. Are you thinking of someone right now?
- of course. :D Si John ko. :D

4. Do you party?
- nope.

15. Do you like twins?
- sana may twin ako para fun.

16. Fill in the blank: I am __.
- the biggest mistake of your life.

7. Say something in five words to the person who sent you this!
- O, May, runaway with him!

19. Mary has her little lamb. What do youwanna have?
- nyarf :P

20. Say anything you like to whoever is reading your answers!
- Masarap ang Jolly biscuits hehe. Pramis.

21. what do you think of the person that sent you this?
- She's inlab. :D

22. do you smoke, drink, do drugs?
- hmm. smoke? nah. drink? sometimes. drugs? he's my drug...

23. are you in love?
- well. . . >--well...

24. what kind of girl / boy do you like?
- 1. yung tipong pwede kong sabihin sakanya lahat ng bagay.
2. yung may sense kausap
3. yung may toyo. para pareho kami :D
4. yung nagseseryoso kung kelangan.
5. mabait. di lang sakin, pero sa lahat ng tao.
6. hmmm.. matalino.
7. consistent.
8. pareho trip namin sa music. di dapat mawala toh.

25. Any last request?
- Johnny Rzeznik!!!!!!!
... extra+rice || 10:02 AM

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Randomness.

1.Ano ang nasa isip mo ngaun::
** kung anong oras ako maglolog-in sa RO opis.

2.Sino ang nasa isip mo ngayon::
** cya.

3.May gagawin ka ba mamaya::
** class. zzzzz...

4.Kung hindi ikaw ang sarili mo ngayon sino ka::
** si sisa.

5.Ano nickname mo::
** em-em, em, emmie, emitot, ching, achi, buddy, batchie

6.Nickname na pinaka-ayaw mong tinatawag ka::
** mae.

7.Bagay na dala-dala mo araw-araw::
** cellphone. musika.

8.Taong lagi mong kasama::
** dee, shyn.

9. Ano ang palagi mong ginagawa after school::
** magnet.

10.Kung masa-stuck ka sa isang isla ng isangaraw sino gusto mo mkasama::
** *ngiti*

11.Kung magiging anime character ka cnonganime character k::
** ala akong alam jan.

12.mamili k,mayaman n single o mhrap n ksmaang knyang mhal::
** ?

13.awiting nagre-reflect sa kung ano angnararamdaman mo ngayon::
** Creep (Radiohead)

14.Unang pumapasok sa isip mo pagkagising ngumaga::
** Limang minuto...

15. Bagay na natanggap mo na kinilig ka::
** *ngiti ulet*

16.Natawag ka na bang nerd::
** nde.

17.Nagmamadali ka ba ngayon::
** ndi rin.

18.Kung aalis ka at hindi ka na babalik ng Pilipinas kahit kailan, san ka pupunta::
** sa langit...

19.Ano ang favorite mong song sa ngaun::
** hmmm... As Still As A Photograph (Cacai Velasquez).

20.Meron ka bang special someone::
** anu un? bata pako :P

21.Gusto ka ba niya::
** haha!!

22.Any words na gusto mong sabihin sa kanya::
** um.. "lumayo ka na habang maaga pa." : (

23. Alam mo kung asan siya ngayon::
** um, malamang nasa bahay. tulog.

24.Ano favorite mong colors::
** blue, black.

25.Anong kind ng music ang gusto mo::
** basta ganda lyrics. ung tipong not for stupid people.

27.Ano gusto mo gawin ngayon::
** matulog. sakit ulo ko.

28.Describe yourself::
** unpredictable.

29.Gusto mong panuodin na movie::
** memoirs of a geisha. tagal pa bwiset!!

30.Aalis ka ba ngayon::
** maya maya. 1620H pa class ko eh.

31.Anong ginawa mo kanina::
** hmm.. nagising.

32.Eh kahapon::
** um.. naglakad sa daan as if walang ulan.

33.anong fave # mo at bkit::
** ala pa :)

34.anong ayw mong #::
** hmm.. ala din :) but i like odd numbers more. dunno why.

35. Gutom ka ba?
** Oo!! Beef mami please!!

36. Wala ka ba sa sarili?
** bawat araw na ginawa ng diyos.

37. Tinatamad ka na bang mag-aral?
** oo! lalo na pag Artsche.

38. Satisfied ka ba sa allowance mo?
** nde. 1000 a week nalang ako. gastos kasi!!

39. Ano na ang nasa isip mo ngayon?
** aalis na si shyn...

40. Iniisip mo parin ba cya?
** walang kamatayang pag-iisip..

... extra+rice || 5:33 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Go Away.

I don't need you.

... extra+rice || 10:51 PM

Mr. Dizon Says.

"kAi: and the night difts off to meet the sunshine.. cruz (hehehe..) two dead-like bodies lay in the floor. snoring loudly. waking up now and then to take a leak. not minding the clock. and to think, the clock was nothing but a small red thingy.. they can't, wouldn't, and shouldn't even try spotting it. for the hands will fail them. they will just start another drinking session. a session with only this reason: "because we want to.." that does really count as a reason" --- Karlo Lorenzo Dizon

... extra+rice || 10:32 PM

Crimson Stallion.

Nothing. Can you guess what we are drinking right now? It's 2157H on my PC. Shyn is in the bathroom taking a bath. We were drenched just a while ago when we went to 7-11 to purchase the necessary, um, stuff for the night. We didn't care at all. We were the only ones walking on the street in the rain when all the people settled somewhere dry. We were simply two walking windang things under heavy rain thinking of, well... does it matter at all? What about this night, you ask? Well, it's gonna be a long night. It's just another drinking session, really. Why? Well, do we really need a reason to drink? Actually, no. But, usually.. yeah. But, when you drink without a reason, you're called an alcoholic. Well, we just want to. And that's still a reason. That still counts. (Sabi ni Shyn. --by the way, we're not yet drunk).

For me, drinking is a ceremony. It's my way of welcoming change. Tonight, I drink to .. endless regret. Where's the change? I'm becoming more bitter. Can anyone teach me how to love? Nah, guess not. Guess I have to learn for myself. (Sabi rin ni Shyn.)

Oh, well. Darn.

"I drank to drown the pain but the damned pain learned how to swim." -Frida Kahlo (Shyn din)

... extra+rice || 9:56 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Your Book.

Without Title
(Maire Bitter, 17July05)

i am a book you read
secret and steady
aimless but timeless
without title
without intention
can you understand me at all?
when you begin a page
you start to trace me
my soul then trembles
because you see
because i let you
little accidents you cause me
but then again, you sink
in my story, deep
harmless, this you thought
at first, stillness
at first, perfection
and then there was reality
close this one book now
leave the pages unturned
before i finally punctuate
before you see
before you completely see
that you just made up
everything you have read...

... extra+rice || 8:29 PM

Song.

I can't think of anything to write.
Here's a really beautiful song...

"As Still As A Photgraph"
by Cacai Velasquez

I used to say that I would readily
Swim the seven seas for you
Now I can't reach the shore
I used to say that only
I have a key to your heart
Now I can't find the door

Slowly fading like a painting on your wall
Yet it's clear as the sound of your laugh
Forever captured in my mind, you'll remain
As still as a photograph

My shoes are now worn from walking too far
Still the further I go
My hands are so tired from hiding the scar
I refuse to show
And though I know that it's wrong
You're still my concern like a thorn in my side
It's hard to be strong
Where you've nowhere to turn
When you've nowhere to hide

And though the wound burns
It's mine to keep
To hold in my arms and to sing you to sleep
For it's all that I have for now realize
And I know where it lives when reality dies
When reality dies

... extra+rice || 1:02 PM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Stuff.

1. I am tired. I am not complaining. I am simply saying.
2. It was a fun day. I love my brother.
3. Subway. I should have defended him. He should not be treated that way. They don't know him. He does not deserve ridicule.
4. It comes with the job. Accept it. But...
5. My skin is getting darker. What color should my gown be?
6. I can't let my bandmates down. Wanted: Bassist. Before August. Please
7. Maybe some things are just not meant to happen. Some things are just too good to be true. Maybe I did not deserve it that why it was taken away from me as soon as it was given to me. Oh, well.
8. I am really happy for Dianne.
9. I am really sad for the brothers. I hope they already talked.
10. Once again, I am caught in the middle. Maybe I should hurt more people. Nah..
11. I'm gonna pray...

... extra+rice || 6:46 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Cruel Time.

"Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay." - Burnout (Sugarfree)

I am turning eighteen on October. Why do people make such a big deal about reaching that certain age? Now that I am nearing that age, I find that everyone seems to be adjusting to it. Everyone except me. They say I'm already becoming a young woman. What does that mean, really? I am tired of thinking about it. Just as tired as the people telling me to start thinking about it over and over again. It's like driving a angry nail into stubborn concrete.

It's 1535H. Just got home. I'm alone. In my room. It's raining. I missed the rain. It's making me think. I love it when everything is quiet. I love peace. I love being alone on days like this. I found a copy of the Goo Goo Dolls' Live in Buffalo concert on my desk. I guess the Lee's dropped by earlier. Well, thank you Mr. and Mr. Lee. I really appreciate it.

I can't think of anything to write. Disoriented thoughts won't interest you a bit. I am not focused. I am hungry.

I am loving this.

... extra+rice || 3:04 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

The Sadness.

I was unnaturally quiet during dinner and my dad couldn't help but notice. I sat across him at the restaurant where we ate. While waiting for our food, I was reading Paulo Coelho's Veronika Decides To Die out of boredom. "Bakit parang matamlay baby ko?" I was still sleepy, I told him. He told me I should have slept early last night... I just smiled. He borrowed the book and started reading the cover, probably bothered by the title. He was probably wondering why I was reading such a book. Well, dad it's just a title. I'll tell you all about it when I finish reading it. I'm not gonna kill myself or anything, don't worry. I love you.

I was still quiet. Absorbed in my own world which, at that time, was the food on my plate. Sisig. I know it was not the right time to think about life but there I was, lured by the circumstances. I cannot fight them anymore. I have proven myself weak. The details, well, nobody needs to know. Why was I "matamlay"?

1.Let's just say I am torn between two things I really want and I cannot make a choice because of...
2. I still don't know what to do with my life. I do not believe I'll end up successful. I have my reasons. Once again, you don't have to know.
3. People are evil. Before stepping into college and staying in Manila, I still believed that there are many good people. I guess I was just so wrong. People are angry. People are mean. Talk about culture shock. You cannot trust anybody completely. Well, I guess that' s how life works. I just wish I'd known it sooner.
4. Once again, one bad thing happened to one good person. Of all people, why her? She did not do anything wrong... she always did everything right. She doesn't deserve it. You should know that. Of all beings, it is You who should know that. I'm not complaining why bad things happen to me, not anymore. I know my place. Again I ask, why her?
5. Actors. Not the ones in the movies. Real life actors. Sadly, I have no choice but to be one of them for now.
6. Hari ng Sablay. Prinsepe ng Sablay. Sablay. They make me real, real sad.
7. I do not have time for myself anymore. On Tuesdays and Thursdays, my class is not until 1620H. I wake up early to report. I go back home and enjoy being alone for a change. I think during these times. I let the silence trace me. Then the doorbell rings and in comes a visitor. Once again, unexpected. So my YM stat shifts from "quiet time mode" to "naudlot nanaman quiet time ko". I am desperate for quiet time.
8. Him. He makes me sad. Yes, just seeing him makes me happy but still, he makes me sad.
9. I'm broke. Period.
10. Lastly, the Goo Goo Dolls make me sad. I do not know why. They just do... and I love it.

Beautiful song. Please read the lyrics.

"Name" by Goo Goo Dolls

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away
And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em your name
Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are
You grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em your name

I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
And I won't tell em your name

... extra+rice || 10:29 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Sabado Ngayon.

"Sabado"
by B'04

Sabado bukas, gumising ng maaga
Sabado bukas, wala munang lakwacha
At dahil sabado bukas
ANG TULOG AY AGAHAN NA (Hehehe... :))

At dahil sabado bukas
Araw ng matitikas
Huwag mong kalilimutang mag-almusal
Masayang/Masarap mag-RO sa La Salle.

... extra+rice || 10:25 PM