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Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Wala lang. Sinusubukan ko lang naman kung ano ba ang La Salle pag gabi. Naglalakad ako ngayon sa may mga benches malapit sa central plaza. Naglalakad habang nagsusulat at nabibingi sa mga naghahasa ng something. Nasa central plaza na ako, papuntang Ampitheatre. Dun na ako tatambay. Sana hindi basa ang mga upuan. Nakarating na ako at umpisa na ang pag-mumuni-muni ko. Kakauwi ko lang kanina. Hinatid na ako pauwi. Bago pa pala nun, galing akong 7-11 at bumili ng Yakult. Iniwan ko muna yung binili ko sa bahay tapos bumaba ulit ako. Tagal ng elevator. Nakakaasar.

Wala lang, naisipan ko lang mapag-isa. Maganda pala dito. Tahimik. Sobra. Dito nalang ako tatambay. 2040H na. Anong oras ba nagsasara ang La Salle? .... May dalawang taong dumaan. Walang cute sa kanila, bwiset. May pusang umiiyak. Maingay. Tumigil. Sana di nalang siya tumigil. Darn. Naririnig ko na ang LRT. Naalala ko tuloy si Nice. Sana maabutan niya ang LRT para di na cya magjeep. May mga putok akong naririnig... bwiset. Si Manong lang pala, tulak ang kanyang de gulong na basurahan! Haha! Natatawa ako, akala ko kung anong ingay! Kala ko war of the worlds na hehehe! Sana ganito nalang lagi. Tahimik. Ayun nanaman! Yung pusang umiiyak! Bakit kaya cya umiiyak? Nasaktan kaya cya? o nawawala? o gutom? Kawawa naman.. parang si... hehehe... sino ba ang nasaktan kanina? Si Dee. Pero ayos na cya. Sana ayos na cya. Pero tingin ko ayos na cya. Anjan naman kasi si David eh. Sinong nawawala? In English, sinong LOST? Ako. Hehehe! Nawawala ako kasi walang nakakaalam kung nasan ako ngayon. Lagot ako sa tatay ko. Isa akong dakilang pasaway... At sinong gutom? Hay, tinatanong pa ba yan? Ako parin. Di pa ako kumakain eh.. pero ayos lang . Kelangan kong magkasya sa dress na susuotin ko sa pictorial ko sa August 17! (Happy b-day pala kay Abet!)

Anyway, kapag nalaman to nina Ate na andito ako ngayon, ano kaya iispin nun? Siguro mag-aalala yun... mag-assume ba! Mahal ako nun eh, natural mag-aalala yun. Pero, batchie, wala. Wala to. Sasabihin ko rin sayo balang araw kung bakit ako ganto lately. Balang araw. Siguro kapag may mga asawa na kayo. Pero pinapangako ko na bago ako mamatay eh sasabihin ko sainyo...

Medjo may mga dumadaan na rin. Mga uuwi. Uwi narin kaya ako? Mamaya na.. kapag feel ko na. Or kapag pinapaalis na akon dahil magsasara na ang La Salle at ako nalang ang tao dito. Natutulog na ang mga paa ko! Naka-Indian seat kasi ako dito. At kanina pa. Maiba nga ang upo... Hayan. Anong oras nga ba nagsasara ang La Salle? Galing ko rin noh? Second year na di parin alam kung ano ang closing time ng sariling skul. Hehehe.. malalaman ko rin yun. Marami ng taong dumadaan. Siguro nga closing time na. Eniwei... may nararamdaman na akong tubig na tumutulo. Umaambon na. Feel kong magpaulan. Tinutuluan na ang notebook ko. Haay.. siguro nga dapat umuwi na ako. Sige na nga. Uuwi na. Hay.. pero sana matagal ang oras ko dito. Sana kasama ko nalang cya. Maglalasing nalang ako ng Yakult sa bahay. 2100H. Sakto. Meow.

... extra+rice || 9:04 PM

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Because You Are
by Maire Bitter

therefore i
mimic ragdolls
ancient in your trunk, asleep
dust stubbornly
gets caught in my eye
bringing me to life
i dance around, mindless,
to begin my execution
you speak of time
how slow, how fast
how cruel it really is
i try to execute my heart
along with my mind
then you save me
from myself

therefore i
stand at hallways
and stick my back
to the walls
shadows giving punches in the dark
only in my mind
you say just the right words to begin my execution
you speak of pick-up car dreams
history and rock concerts
you execute my heart
along with my mind
i am entirely consumed

therefore i
pray myself to sleep
forgetting my "Amen"
paper cranes fall
from my ceiling
to my face, one by one
i fail to pick them up and begin his execution
i forget bloody kisses
whispers
and ringing doorbells
you execute my heart
along with my mind
i punch
faceless shadows back

therefore i
drink raindrops
as i swallow tears
fat, bare, cold
words raining, ranting
to reveal to you
my shallow mind
i hope it floods you mad
to begin your execution
i speak of band names
twister dreams
and rock concerts as well

i try to execute your heart and mind but still
because you are immortal
i fail
and end up
surrendering mine

I Don't Want To Wait
by Paula Cole

so open up your
morning light
and say a little
pray'r for i
you know that
if we are
to stay alive
and see the peace in every eye

she had two babies
one was six months
one was three
in the war of '44
every telephone ring
every heartbeat stinging
when she found it was
God calling her
oh would her son grow
to know his father

i don't want to wait
for our lives
to be over
i want to know
right now
what will it be
i don't want to wait
for our lives
to be over
will it be yes
or will it be
... sorry

he showed up all wet
on the rainy front step
wearing shrapnel in his skin
and the war he saw
lives inside him still
it's so hard to be
gentle and warm
the years passed by and now
he has granddaughters

i don't want to wait
for our lives
to be over
i want to know
right now
what will it be
i don't want to wait
for our lives
to be over
will it be yes
or will it be
... sorry
oh so you look at me
from across the room
you're wearing
your anguish again
believe me
i know the feeling
it sucks you
into the jaws of anger
oh, so breathe a little
more deeply my love
all we have is
this very moment
and i don't want to do
what his father
and his father
and his father did
i want to be here now

so open up your
morning light
and say a little
pray'r for i
you know that
if we are
to stay alive
and see the love in every eye