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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

"Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay." - Burnout (Sugarfree)

I am turning eighteen on October. Why do people make such a big deal about reaching that certain age? Now that I am nearing that age, I find that everyone seems to be adjusting to it. Everyone except me. They say I'm already becoming a young woman. What does that mean, really? I am tired of thinking about it. Just as tired as the people telling me to start thinking about it over and over again. It's like driving a angry nail into stubborn concrete.

It's 1535H. Just got home. I'm alone. In my room. It's raining. I missed the rain. It's making me think. I love it when everything is quiet. I love peace. I love being alone on days like this. I found a copy of the Goo Goo Dolls' Live in Buffalo concert on my desk. I guess the Lee's dropped by earlier. Well, thank you Mr. and Mr. Lee. I really appreciate it.

I can't think of anything to write. Disoriented thoughts won't interest you a bit. I am not focused. I am hungry.

I am loving this.

... extra+rice || 3:04 PM

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windang

Name<||>-em tan-
Age<||>-17-
Loves<||>-music-
Hates<||>-school-
Rants?<||>-a lot-
Daddy's Girl?<||>-_-
Alone?<||>-ALWAYS-
Heartbroken?<||>-nah!-
In Love?<||>-hehe-
LOST?<||>-FOREVER-

rants

The Sadness.
Sabado Ngayon.
Wow.

my past

June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
December 2005
February 2006

teleport

Hazel
Kayo
Buddy Tal
Ethel
Sir Mina 1
Sir Mina 2
Nicetot

Counter Struck
Ultimate Guitar
Are You Bored?

stab me

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Because You Are
by Maire Bitter

therefore i
mimic ragdolls
ancient in your trunk, asleep
dust stubbornly
gets caught in my eye
bringing me to life
i dance around, mindless,
to begin my execution
you speak of time
how slow, how fast
how cruel it really is
i try to execute my heart
along with my mind
then you save me
from myself

therefore i
stand at hallways
and stick my back
to the walls
shadows giving punches in the dark
only in my mind
you say just the right words to begin my execution
you speak of pick-up car dreams
history and rock concerts
you execute my heart
along with my mind
i am entirely consumed

therefore i
pray myself to sleep
forgetting my "Amen"
paper cranes fall
from my ceiling
to my face, one by one
i fail to pick them up and begin his execution
i forget bloody kisses
whispers
and ringing doorbells
you execute my heart
along with my mind
i punch
faceless shadows back

therefore i
drink raindrops
as i swallow tears
fat, bare, cold
words raining, ranting
to reveal to you
my shallow mind
i hope it floods you mad
to begin your execution
i speak of band names
twister dreams
and rock concerts as well

i try to execute your heart and mind but still
because you are immortal
i fail
and end up
surrendering mine

I Don't Want To Wait
by Paula Cole

so open up your
morning light
and say a little
pray'r for i
you know that
if we are
to stay alive
and see the peace in every eye

she had two babies
one was six months
one was three
in the war of '44
every telephone ring
every heartbeat stinging
when she found it was
God calling her
oh would her son grow
to know his father

i don't want to wait
for our lives
to be over
i want to know
right now
what will it be
i don't want to wait
for our lives
to be over
will it be yes
or will it be
... sorry

he showed up all wet
on the rainy front step
wearing shrapnel in his skin
and the war he saw
lives inside him still
it's so hard to be
gentle and warm
the years passed by and now
he has granddaughters

i don't want to wait
for our lives
to be over
i want to know
right now
what will it be
i don't want to wait
for our lives
to be over
will it be yes
or will it be
... sorry
oh so you look at me
from across the room
you're wearing
your anguish again
believe me
i know the feeling
it sucks you
into the jaws of anger
oh, so breathe a little
more deeply my love
all we have is
this very moment
and i don't want to do
what his father
and his father
and his father did
i want to be here now

so open up your
morning light
and say a little
pray'r for i
you know that
if we are
to stay alive
and see the love in every eye